silly thinking.. haha..

'the champion for the 100m event is..................... TIME'

*clap* *clap*

'wow, HIM again ah.. every year also TIME become the champion for this event'

'really cannot find other ppl that can beat HIM??'

'it will be very hard to find other ppl who can run as fast as HIM.. HE hold the world champion for infinity decades d..'

'then how are we going to fight with him??'

'just try our best.. mayb is hard for us to beat HIM but we can find him to become our sifu.. HE very friendly to others.. everyone is HIS friend.. i tink HE can teach us how to run in the correct way'

'oh ya wo.. although we cant beat HIM but with that mayb we can shorten the distance between us and HIM in every tournament.. keep in track wif HIM.. so that we wont regret in every tournament that we join..'

'ya.. most important is we don't left behind too much.. we should follow HIS way and try to do our best during our trainning and also competition'

'yaya.. true also.. lets go find HIM then..'

*some silly thinking in my mind during the final week.. mayb study til too stress d.. haha.. hope all wil und wat im trying to say.. every1 gambateh ya.. dun just waste ur time like tat.. keep in track with ur time*

特别的朋友

已好久没有你的影子徘徊在我脑里了
熟悉的感觉又浮现出来了
心里总是盼望能遇见你
哪怕只是那一秒或擦身而过
我也傻傻地开心好一阵子
很想遇见你却又怕看到你
我也不晓得那是那门的道理
但我想也是因为这样
才让我更期待与你的巧遇
常在想
为什么我们的友谊不能像一般人那样
可能那就是我们的缘分吧
我们之间经营友谊的方式
就是把心交给一个陌生人
但那个陌生人却是无意间
已在彼此的心里
占了别人无法代替的位子
一个特别的朋友
无需每时每刻联络
彼此却不会忘记对方
我有着这样的朋友
而我在这很想告诉她
我是不会忘记你的
希望你偶尔也会想起我吧

childhood

last few weeks, my cousin sent me a picture.. erm.. when i just browse tru the pic, i thought why suddenly my cousin sent me unknown small kids picture to me.. but when i really look into it.. OPPS.. thats ME and my COUSINS.. haha.. wow.. how come last time i so cute but no doubt now also that cute lah.. haha.. the small gal in blue shirt is me and the small boy smiling happily is my cousin.. n i THINK the small small boy holding racket is his brother.. we used to stay 2gether for 16 years.. 2 family stayed in 1 house.. although my house not really big but we can just stayed there happily and comfortable 2gether.. mayb our childhood not like other ppl so fun but then we have our own memories 2gether.. no doubt i miss the time when we can stay 2gether

memorable moments:

1. play companies game.. haha.. make money ourselve, cheque book and hide in a small corner and set that as own company (for ur info normally the corner that we choose fulled wif nyamuk but yet we stil wana bcum their food.. sweat..)
2. play masak-masak.. 4 of us will b very semangat to set up the stall, find watever things that can treat as food and cook.. but then when finish playing, no1 wana kemas.. all duno run where d.. in the end all kena marah again.. haha..
3. play badminton in front of our house.. the shuttle always flied up the roof, and have to ask the twin SUMs to help us take (for sure their face will b black black like bao qing tian).. or the eldest (means me.. coz that time im the taller..) we will curi curi bring the ladder n climb up ourselve.. stil rmb got one time, i paired up with my cousin.. then half way duno where she went and left the slipper ni.. after a while only i knew she jatuh inside longkak d bcoz keep on moving backwards to hit the ball.. haha.. (hope she wont read tis and kill me when im back to ipoh..)
4. always bully my cousin.. duno y.. we always like to anti her.. mayb coz she very chuen gua.. we will always said tis to her "dun wana friend with u lah.. i ask who who dun wan friend with u oso".. then she will go n complained to her mum.. her mum very sayang her tat time.. so in the end all kena scolded by her mum.. and have to said "oklah.. friend with u loh".. we getting smarter after a few times of scolding.. whenever her mum not around only we will say tat sentence.. then she canot force us to play wif her d.. haha.. (for ur info, is the same cousin that fall down into longkang)
5. kick football inside the house.. skill not as good as ronaldo and beckham so always spoilt things.. everytime adult ald told us dun play inside the house d.. but then bcoz outside very hot so we stil wana play inside when the adult not at home.. i think we broke quite many glasses d.. haha.. and naive small kids like us tried to cover from acknowledge the adult but in the end stil kena tangkap lah.. n tat time all the fingers will point to the youngest.. haha..
6. learned swimming together in ACS.. all of us know nothing and went to learn for fun.. 2 hours per week but we really had fun inside the swimming pool..

wow... if wana list all out, i guess i no nd study for my final d.. haha.. erm.. alots of memories pop up when i look at the picture.. i tink 4 years ago they moved out from my house and bought a new house behind my house.. although the distance is just 30 steps away but then sure v lost a lotz of fun bcoz of the distance.. we are growing time by time.. now me and my eldest cousin ald studying at kl and melaka n soon my sis and my another cousin will study away from ipoh i guess.. ipoh is the place that gather us.. so everytime im bek ipoh, i wil try to meet my cousins.. for steamboat mayb.. haha.. we hardly meet but we are stil tat close in heart.. i can say that i can hardly see such close cousins.. hehe.. all the best to dark guy and my sis in spm lah.. gambateh ya.. waiting u 2 to come uniten (mayb).. haha..

say more good things to others..

today is thurs.. opps.. one week going to end soon again.. wow.. tis week i think is even faster than the week before... n next week will start my final d.. i haven start anything for my final now.. final?? erm.. am i tinking too long?? i din even start study for my lab test tmr.. tonight i will camp in the library n make sure i can study all the lab that i did in the past 3 months.. although it just 1 credit hour, but look at my carry marks for all the subs tis sem, i better work hard although just 1 credit hour.. if not my cgpa will drop til deep in the tasik d.. 2day i had my presentation for communication system.. actually it shud b done by tues but then bcoz of the EFFORT that we put in this presentation, we kena rejected.. v asked the lecturer to give us more time to redo so that we wont just got half of the presentation marks.. after tat, we faced alotz of difficuties in finding the coding for our matlab presentation.. but then we stil tried our best in finished up the report and presentation.. this morning v were quite sked the lecturer ask ques that we duno how to ans.. but yet although sum ques v dunno the real ans, n with our smart brain we CRAPPED to the lecturer.. thank god that the lecturer dunno much bout the coding part.. and for my part, i just simply explained a bit bout the coding (when the lecturer asked us, and actually is my friend who found the matlab coding n she noe it better than us).. after that, the lecturer straight away give me the marks and im excluded from the presentation part d.. thats all i need to do to get the marks.. just a few sentence that might bring no meaning.. wow.. now i know that we should speak at the right time.. haha.. n for conclusion, the lecturer said our work was great.. the word really bring power to us.. we all very happy when the lecturer praised us.. the hardworks are being appreciated.. from this i learned that, even a simple word from ur mouth that u think is nothing but actually it might bring a powerful energy to others.. say more good things to others n u will make sum1 happy..

partial sum is back..

they said when u r undergoing a sad life, time will pass slower than a turtle?? i thought this week will b a hard week for me, but looks like its not.. haha.. it passed faster than i expected.. 1 week passed just like that.. n honestly, i feel more happy than b4 d.. mayb sumtimes face it is much more better than avoid it.. fate sumtimes really like playing a fool with me.. but then i believe that GOD will always look at what we are doing.. HE will guide us tru out our life.. mayb there are sum tests that might b a tough wan for me.. but i know there are always ways after the corner of darkness.. now can say that the problem had solved.. n now im the brand new me.. wif a stronger heart and better personality i guess.. good friends really the best when im facing problem.. i promise that i will be by ur side also when u all need me.. thats a promise for friends.. hehe.. this blog just wana tell all my friends that partial sum is back in action.. thankz to all of u..

disappointed..

many people always told me, my temper is too good.. i will never angry a person easily.. erm.. normally if u want to see me socld me people then i think u need to wait for a decade.. not that i saying myself like so nice but then i just seldom feel angry n if i am i can just forget about it in a short time.. but no matter how good someone is, there will b some limit for it.. and for me.. i hate people lying to me.. i hate it and hate it so much.. got a friend told me before.. guys like to lie.. while gals like to listen to lie.. ya.. it mayb correct but plz guys.. don't let ur lies being bocor.. plz dun ever giv promises to your friends you.. think twice before u make a promise coz sometimes promise means alot to a person.. people that telling lie make me feel like vomit when i see she/him.. i don't feel comfortable when im around she/him.. mayb is time for me to stay away from she/him so that i can have a better life.. without friends i am nothing but with tis kind of friend i prefer i own nothing.. i feel very disappointed and hope all tis act just a misunderstand between us..

踏出去了？？

放手是一种无奈的绝望，痛彻心扉。当曾经珍爱如生命的人即将相逢陌路时，才恍然大悟：原来，曾经以为的天长地久，其实不过是萍水相逢。

曾经以为可以这样牵着手一路走下去，可是放手了才明白一切只是两条平行线，当一切都烟消云散，平行的依旧平行。即使相隔不远，也已是人各天涯。

　　勇敢的代价是自己先放下，承认失败、接受无奈，轻轻地叹口气，祝福他今后幸福快乐。从此心若芷水，难起波澜。

　　卷缩在角落，等待着伤口平复，体会敢爱敢恨敢失去的洒脱。

　　幸福的感觉也许只能刹那，刹那过后，是一个人的精彩。

　　放手的日子，总是落落孤欢，会莫名地为了一首歌，一部戏，一个情节。甚或是一句话而泪流满面。总觉得天是黑的，云是灰的。

　　总觉得失去了生活的意义。朋友告诉我：你什么也没有失去，你只是回到了认识他以前的日子。我释然，就像烟花不可能永远挂在天际，只要曾经灿烂过，又何必执着于没有烟花的日子呢？

　　我们都是凡尘男女，挣不出纠缠的情网。逃不过爱与被爱的旋涡，心碎神伤后。是漫无止境的寂寞，寂寞吗？或许吧！再也不用为了猜测他的心思而绞尽脑汁，会不会轻舒一口气，感觉轻松一点点呢？

　　是真的想开了吗？可以平静的面对他和她。纵然心里有种隐隐的说不出的酸楚。可是我不会落泪，哭泣是因为一个人的记忆在心里。无论怎样也不肯散去。我一次次的问自己：“爱你我怕了吗？”答案是肯定的，我怕了，我真的怕了，千疮百孔的心，脆弱得再也经不起痛入骨髓的折磨，于是我放了他，也给自己放了一条生路。把他凝成一幅画，深深的刻在脑海里...看着，想着，可是不会在做画中人，置身画外，才能更好地欣赏画的美丽，不是吗？

　　用力地握握手，真诚地说声：“再见，珍重！”转过头，洒脱的走开,让背影深深地烙在他的脑海里，当你能够用释然的心态去回忆，你们的点点滴滴,你就可以体会到放手后的美丽。

　　上帝让我在错误的时间遇上了你，我...哭了。

　　它让我在正确的时间离开了你，你...会哭吗？

　　一次次说这次真的放下了，不知道自己还能这样骗自己多久．

暧昧

暧昧是，比好朋友再亲一点，但比恋人远坏恪?/FONT>

　　暧昧是，你会常常在QQ等他在线。当他几天没有在线，你就会有些担心。

　　暧昧是，你会不时去他的BLOG看看有没有更新；而且你会留意字里行间，他对你有没有什么暗示。

　　暧昧是，有感觉，然而，这种感觉不足以叫你们切切实实地发展一段正式的关系。

　　暧昧是，明白人生有太多的无奈，现实有太多的限制。你知道没有可能，但又舍不得放手。

　　暧昧是，有进一步的冲动，却没有进一步的勇气。

　　暧昧是，他不是你的情人，但似乎他比你的情人更关心你和了解你。

　　暧昧是，你会编一条围巾给他，但大家从没有开始过。

　　暧昧是，虽然他不是你的情人，但他却会对你说：你对我是十分重要的。

　　暧昧是，你感冒时有一个会在晚上打电话来，特意提醒你服药，叫你盖好被子早点睡的普通朋友。

　　暧昧是，当你遇到问题解决不了的时候，你找不到你的男/女朋友，你第一个便会想起他。

　　暧昧是，每当他提及他的另一半时，你会万箭穿心。

　　暧昧是，为了逃避背叛的罪恶感。

　　暧昧是，甜津津又同时酸溜溜的。往往从未开始，已叫人不安，患得患失。

　　暧昧是，别人以为你们在搞地下情时，你会沾沾自喜。

　　暧昧是，别人问你们是否恋爱中，你张口结舌。

　　暧昧是，常常挣扎表不表白。你怕表白之后，你既得不到一个情人，却又失去了一个知心好友。

　　暧昧是，见到他，你会心跳。见不到他时，你会挂念他。

　　暧昧是，两个人都会互相猜想。他是不是已经暗示了什么？我是不是自作多情？

　　暧昧是，每天大家都会聊QQ，会互传手机短讯，无规律地偶然约会。

　　暧昧是，除了情人节之外，其它的节日，大家都交换礼物。

　　暧昧是，你很想多走一步，但又怕会吓怕了他。你会很小心流露自己的感情。

　　暧昧是，两个人没有承诺过什么。但虽然如此，你愿意付出的，比有承诺的情侣更多。没有责任，但你却很渴望去承担，不问回报。

　　暧昧,是一扇门，你可以停留在门外，也可以踏进房子里面。然后你不可以停留在门下面。门--永不是终点站。

　　我们暧昧，我们却不属于对方。

还有一种爱，叫离开

曾经天真的以为不管时间和空间的距离有多长多远，
感情一定会恒久不变，因为爱是没有理由的……

爱不能成为牵绊，所以要选择放手，
从容的让彼此走出彼此的世界。
凡事到极至，伤也会痛。
其实爱过就会懂，
彼此个性的太过坚强终究会是一起生活的阴影

昨日的幸福已成为一种痕迹。
两人能携手走完整人生固然美好，
可陪上了一段也应心存感激了。

爱一个人不是要成为所爱的人的牵绊，
只要心中有爱，生活总是那么美好。
相遇是一种缘，相识，相恋更是一种缘，
缘起而聚，缘尽而散，放手才是真爱！

还有一种爱，叫离开
曾经以为自己的爱情能够长久，
曾经以为真心的付出就能够换来幸福。
其实错了……

爱情给的唯一的东西就是背叛，无情的背叛！
曾经是那么相爱的两个人，转眼陌路。
留下的是残缺不全的记忆和心痛。

(@.@)

不要相信日韩肥皂剧中所谓的因为不能让彼此幸福而离开。

　　是否想过，你们正是对方的幸福。

　　爱不是逃避，是努力。

　　不是逃避着给彼此幸福的责任，而是努力的实现让彼此幸福的义务。

　　当你说离开是为了不让对方受到伤害的时候，你已经给对方造成了最大的伤害。

　　爱就是要努力在一起。

　　不要因为害怕彼此离开而体谅。

　　体谅是因为爱，而不是因为恐惧。

　　爱是一种责任，不可以轻易的离开。

　　让你为离开而恐惧的人，算不上爱人，就算付出再多，要离开的人，终究是会离开。

　　不要觉得不了解也会有爱情。

　　在不了解的时候，我们仅仅是喜欢，达不到爱情。

　　当彼此的缺点暴露出来以后，很多时候这喜欢也就会结束了。

　　爱是宽容，爱着彼此的一切。

　　爱上不了解的人，或许，你爱的只是他的新奇罢了。

　　不要相信对你说不介意你跟异性过于亲密的人。

　　这样的人不是骗你就是在玩你，或者根本就不在意你。

　　你会不介意你的爱人和异性亲密到忘记你存在的地步么？

　　想想就知道了。或者，他本身就不介意在几个异性之间周旋。

　　不要在几个异性间周旋。

　　爱情是2个人的存在，容不下第三个人。

　　凡是觉得可以左拥右抱的无非是网上言情小说看多的人。

　　爱情是专一的，请记好。

　　不要给彼此太多的压力。

　　适当的和异性保持距离，对你们的爱情是有好处的。

　　过近的距离，也许会在不经意间，做出让彼此难堪的举动。

　　不要去欺骗你的爱人。

　　记得，若你没有骗他一辈子的把握，那么便对他说实话。

　　当谎言一再被揭穿的时候，有可能一切都结束了。

　　不要觉得样貌会成为很大的障碍。

　　60年后，有没有人能没有皱纹，没有白发？谁又能不变衰老，不变矮小。

　　也许你没有貌，但你有才。也许你没有才，但你温柔。也许你没有温柔，但你……

　　也许你什么都没有，但是也许，他正爱着你的平凡。

　　不要把周围的环境看的太重。

　　谈恋爱的是你们，和周围的人又有什么关系。

　　但是请善待彼此的家人，朋友。很多东西，只是给自己的借口罢了。