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Tuesday, February 26, 2008

我想你

仰头望着满天的星星,
星星在天空中发出一丝丝的光芒,
突然你的影子出现在我脑海里,
我好想念你啊!!
我们已分开多年,
可是偶尔还是会想起你。。
你在哪儿还好吗??
和你分开时,
我的年纪还小,
还不懂事,
可是我记得那时的我感到非常不舍。。
那时你最疼就是我了,
时常带我去这里那里的,
买这个那个的,
别人看了都会眼红。。
被人捧在手心的感觉时非常幸福的,
我总是对你撒娇,
而你却不会和我斤斤计较,
还对我疼爱有加。。
嘻嘻。。
爷爷,
我真的好想你。。
你在哪儿还会记得我吗??
以前你时常带我去我们家附近的mamak店,
吃roti canai。。
现在的我只要看到roti canai,
我就会想起你。。
想起你那慈祥的笑容,
沉重但带些温柔的语气,
粗糙的手,
总是紧紧地握着我,
好像怕失去我似的。。
那时癌症纠缠着你,
看到你辛苦地和它对战,
我的心真的很痛。。
虽然你在折磨当中,
可是你还是不忘把微笑表露给我看,
让我不会太难过。。
爷爷,
你是我最尊重的人,
你是我最爱戴的人,
你是我最深爱的人,
无人能取代你的。。
15年了,
你离开已有15 年了。。
当你离开时,
我才6岁。。
那时我立志要当一名医生,
因为我要打败那把你带走的癌症。。
可是,
现在的我却是对医学一点兴趣也没有,
现在的我正一步步的往工程师走去,
我想你也会为我感到骄傲吧。。
当我坐在客厅里无所事事时,
我总是爱望着你的遗照,
总是希望你会再次对我微笑,
好像某些戏里头那样,
可是到现在还没发生过,
应该感到安慰这没发生吧。。
嘻嘻。。
爷爷,
今天的我已经长大了,
很多东西都改变了,
可是我还是那么爱你。。
真的。。
我很想念你。。

Monday, February 25, 2008

bakti siswa berwawasan..

2.5 months of preparation.. after tons of work and meetings, finally our moral project for sec 2 ended yesterday.. v went to Kg. Terisu dan Kg. Sg. Jarik in cameron highland last friday.. there are the venue for our moral project this sem.. this project involved all the students in moral class.. erm.. around 126 students.. we went to the perkampungan orang asli.. to do some charity work..

ok.. lets start with the first day - friday.. early in the morning, 4am will have a bunch of exco and ajk will depart first.. it was because v need to set up the opening ceremony and also settle some thing in the kampung before all the students reach there.. although say is 4am, but some of the exco have to shift all the stuffs that we going to bring to the place we gather later.. so we started our "shifting game" at 2.30am.. we shifted 85 packets of rice, 70 boxes of mineral water, all the books that donated from our students to the penduduk kampung orang asli, foods, the stuff that needed in the module and also 15 electric items for the lucky draw section.. 16 people were the lucky one who need to depart earlier.. after settled everything, around 4.30am the shuttle bus started to move.. then the remaining exco had to stay at the place to looked after the stuff that we shifted there until 6am we depart.. most of the exco didn't sleep that night so we just lied down on the floor and some in the car to take a short nap.. 6am registration time.. briefing was given to all the students.. after shifting all the remaining stuffs to the bus, we departed at 7.30am.. during the journey there, 1 of the bus's air cond got problem.. around 12.30pm we all reached the entrance of the kampung.. but then due the road not that good, the big bus cant enter.. so all the students need to shift all the things down and waited for the small bus and van.. it took around half an hour to reached the kampung from the entrance.. due to the time, we need to maximize the people and the stuffs that we brought in the van or bus.. all the students inside just like sardin in a bread.. sorry everyone.. around 2.30pm, all the students were shifted into the kampung.. the people who reached earlier started the promotion, promote to all the people in this 2 kampung about our activities.. and others helped in cleaning the classrooms that we going to stay for this 2 nights.. we went to all the houses in this 2 kampung, if not mistaken, there are total 85 houses there.. we separated a few groups and went to house by house with goodies bag.. 3.30pm.. our opening.. out of our expectation, many villager attended our opening.. whole hall were fulled with people and our own students have no place to sit so all have to stand.. after the opening, ice breaking section.. we played some simple games with the children there.. they were so cute.. when they were playing, i was just laughing at the side and helped to control the children.. the feeling that time is hard to express now.. maybe GREAT is the only word that can suite my feeling that time.. at night, movie sharing.. i forgot what is the title of the movie.. erm.. the movie should start at 7.30pm.. but by that time, just a few villagers were there only.. so we started to worry no one will join us.. we form some groups and try to asked the people to come.. but then, around 8pm.. we can see that many villagers were walking from their house.. we were so excited and happy.. in the end, the hall also fulled with the villagers.. im not sure whether they can really understand the movie but we already tried to find a movie with malay subtitle.. after that i need to went back to the school for duty so i dunno what happen that time.. when im dutying, i looked at the sky.. there were alotz of stars that day.. the weather there is cooling.. just nice to enjoy the night.. i miss someone alot that time.. hehe.. the first day activities i can say is very successful..

Saturday - the most important day for us.. because all the modules held on that day.. wait.. let me talk about the sat early morning first.. bcoz the classrooms not enough place for all the girls so 5 of the gal exco need to sleep in the bilik urus setia.. on the bench or floor.. i need to duty from 5am to 7am.. woke up at 5am.. wow.. the weather was damn COLD.. my whole body bergetar-getar.. just like vibrate is on.. haha.. that time ah tan also duty.. so he boiled hot water for milo.. honestly i dun like milo, but after that night i started to like milo.. coz after i drank the milo, my whole body felt so warm.. just like hugging by someone.. hehe.. our second day started wif exersice.. all the students were very discipline and punctual so our modules can started base on the time we planned.. we have 5 modules and 1 competition for each levels.. got tadika, primary and secondary levels.. our students will separated to facilitators and modulators.. facilitators have to follow the group of children when there moving here and there.. while the modulators stayed at each station teached the children with their different tasks.. not just the children there can learn things, i think our modulators and facilitators also can learn something.. we learned how to b patient and friendly withe the children.. not every children there are so nice sitting there follow what u say.. so we have to b more open so that they will join us in what we are planning to do.. we ready lunch for all the children there.. but then some problem occurred.. food is not enough for all people.. so we need to ask the canteen aunty cooked more.. some parents took 4 packets of rice back home.. thats why we not enough.. but never mind... since we are doing charity what.. hehe... on the other side, the ajk and the exco who is free will b in charge of mural.. the teacher there already draw something there and we just need to paint.. v took almost 5 to 6 hours to finish it.. it was really nice.. thanks to the team.. actually im in charge of that but because my art sense is quite LOW.. so i offered myself to become facilitator.. hehe.. played with the small kids was so fun since i like kids alotz.. hehe.. at night, our night performance.. don't think just the uniten students will perform, the kids from each level also will perform.. hehe.. the tadika kids sang rasa sayang.. they were so cute and serious when they performing.. primary level also sang song... they sang "jalur gemilang".. wow.. i don't even remember the full lyric but thats not a problem for them.. respect them lah.. hehe.. and the secondary level had a short sketch that time.. all the performance were nice.. the uniten students also did very well in the performance.. GOOD JOB EVERYONE.. when the night going to end.. some problem occurred.. but then luckily no people get hurt.. thank god.. actually not only the villagers from kg terisu and kg, sg jarik joined us.. the villagers from the kg satu n dua also joined us.. they need to walked very far to reach the hall but then they stil joined us.. thankz to them.. because at night there are no road light, so the road is damn dark.. we had decided to arrange the shuttle bus to fetch them back due to safety problem.. the 2nd night also ended successfully..

sunday - the last day of our project.. after breakfast, we went to do house visitation.. house by house.. we gave them rice and milo for every house.. after that, we separated a few groups to clean some of the area in the kampung.. school, hall, road side and a few more places.. due to all the students worked hard together and also with the help of some kids, very fast we finished our cleaning section.. 11.30am was our closing.. same like the day before.. the hall was fulled with the villagers.. multimedia was played.. when i watched it, my tears really drop.. our hard work had make the project success.. so fast 3 days just ended like that.. haiz.. but then starting of something sure will meet the end.. but then the most sad is the multimedia forgot to put me n karen ( 2 secretary), raymond and mah yee seong ( teknikal) inside.. haiz.. so sad man.. although a bit disappointed on that but i know its not purposely geh.. so is ok gurmesh.. hehe.. (when u treat us dinner ah? haha) during the closing, my friends told me some kids asked them "abang, hari ini kami akan belajar apa??" i thought they will feel bored with our activities but then actually they were not.. they really enjoyed it like what we did.. felt so touched.. so everything ended like that.. we shifted out by van, small bus and also shuttle bus.. around 3pm, everything was shifted in the big bus.. so our journey back started.. 1 of the bus air cond rosak again.. heard they were in the bus without air cond.. so cham.. hehe.. around 9pm we reached uniten.. the project ended like this..

the perkampungan orang asli act not that bad.. just that the kampung got alot flies.. hehe.. i tink everyone come back also got extra "tahi Lalat" d.. haha.. i know everyone tired after this camp.. but i think all of u enjoy the project rite?? its really meaningful work.. i felt very happy and touched.. it is happier than attending guang liang's concert... haha.. anyway.. this project can only b success wif the help of all the students in sec 2, MORB123.. thankz to all of u.. u all did a good job..

Monday, February 4, 2008

thats the true me..

my close friends all know that im guang liang's fans... but i didn't go for any of his concert or any show that about him.. and i don't have any his original album although i listen to his songs since 1999.. i also dunno shud i declare myself as his fans.. hehe.. but i know actually why i like guang liang.. because his voice n his songs always touch my heart.. as you all know, guang liang's songs are slow songs.. i like this kind of songs rather than the rock songs.. im an emotional person.. im always will get moody suddenly without knowing the reason or cause.. i think many people always ask around.. "what u like to do when u r moody??".. my answer for that everytime will b the same.. "i will listen to music while posting my blog or find a right feeling friend to chat.." i dunno what you all think.. but to me.. if u wana share ur own feelings to friends, u must have kind of right feeling also.. erm.. how to describe that kind of feeling leh?? erm.. just like...... erm.. aiya.. i dunno.. im a passive person.. i wont share my own world with simply.. i rather keep the feeling in my heart if i cant get a good and comfortable target to share with.. so when that time come, listening to guang liang's songs is one of my best way to release my moody out.. dunno it just coincidence or what.. the songs that i listening will match with my feeling that time.. and just guang liang's songs can do that.. im a low confidents person.. im always think that im not good enough for other ppl.. im trying to do my best so that my friend can rely on me.. but im always doubt about myself.. silly thinking should be the words that u wanna describe about me now?? but thats my true feeling.. im look strong outside but actually im a very weak person.. always need people to support me.. thats the true partial sum..