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走在人挤人的走道我问了自已
没有爱情的人是否会长命
那些电影常常让人感觉甜蜜
但是我不相信

坐在没有人的角落我又问自已
究竟应该继续还是该放弃
没有人能了解我现在的心情
想看你想躲你难以决定
每当我想靠近你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里它只是个游戏

我只想要靠近也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去和现在新的你
我还想要参与你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去

能不能够让我再说我爱你
还是你已不想听
能不能够把你彻底的忘记
我是真的搞不清

只要你再相信
我们会轻轻地靠在一起

最近的心情
就是如此
到底
喜欢一个爱你比你爱他更多的人好
还是一个你爱他比他爱你的人好
我不知所措

爱你？？还是恨你？？

你我的相遇可说是缘分的造就吧。
常在想，你我会有发展的空间吗？
对你的感觉，
并不那么的踏实。。
这是喜欢吗？
对于你的忽冷忽热，
真的感到没安全感，
对于你讲过的话，
都带着半信半疑的心态。
在你对我很冷淡的当儿，
我会对自己说，
算了，他不值得我去喜欢的。
可是，
当你只是稍微地对我好一点，
我的心又在动摇了。
可能女人就是这样吧。
女人和男人都很善变的。
女人善变的是脸，
而男人善变的是心，
这句话是真的吗？

生气。。谢谢。。

我现在真的是气上头了。。
朋友是这样的吗？
他们有当过我是朋友吗？
这种滋味真的很难受。。
当我很生气的时候，
其实我需要的只是一个听众。。
一个能让我把心里的愤怒讲完出来，
我只需要这种的发泄方法。。
不用一会儿，
我的心情就好多了。。
可能你不相信，
可是我真的没有一次真正的生气过一个人。。
这次，
我真的很想谢谢一个人。。
当我需要一个听众时，
他出现了。。
他没给太多的意见，
他只是静静的聆听我的苦诉，
让我把心里的不满发泄出来。。
没多久，
我们还慢慢的谈起其他事情。。
我也把那不满给忘掉了。。
心中的愤怒和不满，
如果能适合的发泄出来，
那也是种好事吧。。
谢谢你。。

after 3 years...

3 years i have been left school.. 3 years i have been enjoying my university life.. and 3 years my secondary school, amc had lost the champion title to rps (the only school that can fight with amc in perak in netball field) in a premier cup netball competition.. if i am not mistaken, our school netball team has been the champion for this premier cup for 8 years continuously and my batch was the last year of getting the champion.. this year we put high hope on the players and hope to get back the champion title from rps.. early of this month, all the players were busy preparing themselves for the final vs rps.. amc's coach was busy finding the best combination for the whole team.. the coach had gave a lot efforts on it so that they can get back the title.. pressure from the surrounding make the players breath hardly.. and because of this, sweats and tears are the elements that accompanying them through out this few months..
on that early morning (5/7/08), the final between amc and rps was held in msn (a building in stadium ipoh).. there were a lot students from each school came to support their own team..

i will just highlight some of the things happened during the match..

• one of our player injured 30 seconds after the match started.. ( clumsy is the word to describe that girl.. haha.. )
• amc's coach argued with the referees due to some technical problems.. (it is about the score.. the referee was given extra time to the opponent team.. that time amc was leading 9 balls.. so no point for amc argue with the referee..)
  
• a CUTE rps shooter (GS) had showed a 'cute' face to the amc (GK) when rps missed the ball.. (i am wondering whats wrong with the GS.. she should be up sad due to the mistake but she showed a silly action that time by showing her tongue out.. her action was making me and my friend laughed like hell at the side of the court.. haha.. too bad i didn't take the picture down..)
• after 1 hour of playing, amc beat rps by the score 48-36.. (congratulation to the amc team.. although i know is a bit late.. and also to the coach.. she can finally have a good sleep that night i guess..)
• all the seniors and the ex seniors played a 3/4 full court (because not enough people) after the match ended.. (this is because a senior came back from Australia didn't touch netball for a long time.. so other seniors became the victims to accompanied her for a 20 minutes short game..)
• the funniest thing happened when a girl fall down when she was playing with another girl.. (the whole process is in my mind because i saw it.. from the moment she run till fall down.. haha.. the floor was shaking that time i guess.. haha..)
• every year, the premier final is like a gathering for all the ex seniors.. they will come and support the team if they are free.. so hope we will meet next year again..
• all the best to the team and hope that they can be the national champion..
  

shaking hands between the 2 teams players (game ended)

amc's coach was arguing with the referees

the loyal supporters (which included some of the ex seniors)

the silly girl fall down.. the earth was shaking that time.. haha..

proud of you all.. good job..

21st birthday celebration..

the 1st birthday celebration for my 21st birthday should be on wed nite.. a few of my church's friends bought a cake n celebrate with me after our care group end.. but then there was something happen before the celebration.. i dropped my wallet at my apartment's car park.. luckily the guard found it.. thank god.. the guard told my friend that she seldom ronda around our apartment but that night she suddenly felt boring and went for ronda.. n my wallet is in dark blur color.. it is not easy to notice tis kind of color in a car park which just a few lamp pole around.. i really thank god for that.. cant imagine with what mood i will celebrate my birthday if i lost my wallet that day.. after the first celebration, is time to shift to my gang of celebration d.. actually i know they wanna celebrate my birthday earlier with me since i am going back to ipoh on the next day.. since wed morning i was so worry.. for your info, my gang of friends not as simple as you all think.. they can sot until very ABNORMAL.. so i was worry my own safety condition since i know they will celebrate for me.. but then i know i cant run away so i have to accept it.. 1st program, watch movie.. the movie was really nice because the actress are all my buddies of course including me.. i hope they wont kill me when they see this.. the movie title are "Cinderella" and "3 pigs and a wolf".. whoever watch it before will know what i mean lah.. sorry to the 4 actress inside.. i don't mean it gah.. my friend steal the movie from my external hardisk.. after tat, was ghost movie.. i think it was a boring movie actually cause not scary at all.. the only person who feel scare i think is botak koo only.. hehe.. the game had just started after the movie section ends. our "favorite" game, AIYA BOMBA.. all the "enemy" of mine were fighting to sit beside me so that they can balas dendam.. i was tried not to say so much thing that night so that i wont b the victim and my strategy plan was successful and thank to derrick.. he had took my place and keep saying something that make ppl aim him as the victim.. haha.. so i was safe that night.. erm.. maybe i should say not as bad as i think.. the leg still bengkak but at least i still can walk the next day.. hehe.. since 2.45am got champions league's final so we need to end this section earlier.. cake was out and time to feel the "pain" d... as usual, i was asked to take out the candle from the cake (luckily flour become more expensive, no cake to play for them.. haha.. )but then 3 bottle of cream were ready to attack me.. my hair, face, legs and hands were fulled with cream.. i washed my hair for 5 times and body for 4 times only can wash away all the cream.. haiz.. after that, we went to mamak stall watched the final.. manu won by penalty.. it was a great game.. terry was so unlucky to miss the penalty.. i support chelsea but then i was happy that ronaldo missed the penalty kick.. haha..
on 23 of may, i received a lot msg, calls that wish me happy birthday.. thankz to all of my friends.. i wanted to list all ur names out here but it will take a long time so u know who you are lah.. thankz again.. theng treat me sushi on fri afternoon.. that was my 2nd time eat sushi in sushi king.. hehe.. but really had fun with her.. at night, went for dinner with my family.. we went to simpang pulai there fo our dinner.. the food there was quite nice.. but then got a bit sound pollutions.. (thats the disadvantage of having karaoke in restaurant) hehe.. after the dinner, went home for cake n photo section.. my parents gave me a necklace as 21st birthday present.. honestly, this is the 1st time my parents gave me birthday present.. haha.. cant believe leh.. but its true.. hehe.. sat night, went to meet my exclassmates.. had fun chatting with them.. alotz memories came out that night.. now all busy with own life so its hard to meet actually.. my secondary life become meaningful and memorable because of this gang of friend.. thankz my friends.. waiting for another gathering ya.. haha..
thats how i spent my weekend in ipoh.. actually it looks nothing but it means alot to me.. tis year is a special year for me.. everyone out there, i can enter casino d.. haha.. thankz again for everthing..

友情

我最重视的除了家人之外，就只有友情了。讲真，我对友情没什么安全感。可能那都是以前所经历的，觉得很难去维持一段长久的友谊。对，认识我的人都会说我交友满天下，是一个很有人缘的人，我赞同这说法，可是其实这不是我想要得。我想要的，是一段长久的友谊。我很在乎我每一位我关心的朋友，只要他们需要我的帮忙，我都会尽我所能伸出我的援手。可是，为什么我就不能得到一个长久的友情？为什么？当我觉得我找到一个我可以信任的，一个我觉得可以交心的，一个让我觉得我并不是孤独的，但是最后我们却只能回到普通朋友的位子？是我自己的问题吗？我察觉到，我很被动。我不会主动关心一个人，我一直在等别人找我诉苦，发泄。我想要关心，但却害怕。害怕我打扰他，害怕他嫌我烦，害怕这个，害怕那个。我之前看到以下的东西，令我非常赞同，因为这就是时常发生在我身上的：

1. Both Friends Will Think The Other Is Busy
2. And Will Not Contact Thinking It May Be Disturbing
3. As Time Passes
   
4. Both Will Think Let The others Contact
5. After That each Will Think Why I Should Contact First ?
   
6. Here Your Love Will Be Converted To Hate
7. Finally Without Contact The Memory Becomes Weak
8. They Forget Each Other.
   

我知道这就是因为我失去那么多我认为可以交心的朋友。可是我却从来没改过，可能我就是注定孤独吧！

点名游戏。。

點名規則：
A.被點到名字的要在自己的博客裏寫下自己的答案，然後去掉一個你最不喜歡的問題再加上一個你的問題，
仍然組成20個問題，傳給其他8 個人，列出其他8個需要回答問題的人的名字，還要到這8個人的博客裏留言通知對方----你被點名了，
被點名者不得拒絕回答問題，完成遊戲的人將會永遠得到大家的祝福。

B.這8個人要在自己的博客裏註明是從哪裏接到的，並且再傳給其他8個人，讓遊戲繼續下去，不得囘傳。
被點到名字的人將會得到大家的祝福，並且所有美好的願望都會在不久的將來實現。

点我的人是 - my partner in prefectorial board (canteen areahead) - ng foong yee

1.小时候的理想是什么？
能成为一位医生，救会我已去世的爷爷。

2.这辈子最快乐的是什么事？
看到我周围的人开心。

3.你最害怕的东西
去世。

4.你有多久没有傻笑了
我差不多每天都在傻笑。哈哈。

5.你最想去哪個地方？爲什麽？
海边。因为那可让我觉得平静，安心。

6.最受不了自己哪個缺點？
被动，没自信。

7.如果有不開心的事情，你會怎麽辦？
听音乐。

8.最害怕失去的东西？
家人和好朋友。

9.五年内比较现实的目标是什么？
毕业后可以找到一份好工，报答父母。

10.你会怎样对待曾经背叛你的朋友？
先了解原因，但我不会记仇。

11.說出點你名的人的3個優點？
认真，负责任，功课好。

12.孤独是什么？
让我独自思考的时间。

13.喜欢什么类型的人？
幽默和有运动细胞的人。

14.什么原因开始写部落格？？
因为一个朋友。

15.上一次感动是何时？
有一年的纪律营，我的学长为了照顾我而牺牲他的睡眠时间。

16.去过最美的地方是哪里？
云顶的日出。

17.你吃过最好吃的是什么？
妈妈烧的菜。

18.对你而言什么是人与人之间最佳的相处方法？
坦白和信任。

19.你认为男女之间不可能做好朋友吗？
不这么认为，好朋友不会因为性别而改变的。

20.如果能让你实现一个愿望，会是什么？
我要我的家人和朋友健健康康和快快乐乐，世界和平。

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点名：
我不懂要写谁，希望任何看到这个部落格的人都可以给我回应。这可让你更了解自己。不信？？你试试就懂了。谢谢。。