accident happened..

oppppss.. sorry daddy..

number plat also gone

27 years old car..

no matter how careful you are,

no matter how many years experience u had,

accident will also happen without your notice.

in my 6 years of driving life,

total 4 accidents on road.

although all not my fault in the first place,

but i really started to get phobia in driving already.

i feel so sorry to my dad.

cause the 2 cars also my dad's babies.

i guess no one will wipe the cars almost everyday.

some more although is an old car,

my dad don't even thought of selling it.

27 years..

a car that fetch us here and there since i came to this world.

dad,

Im sorry.

more coming up..

Although i already started to work,

but still i took a week holiday to Phuket with my gang of crazy friends.

experienced something that i never did before in my life like snookering, got drunk by beers, had my meals in seven eleven, banana boat (where i really feel like giving up CLIMB up the boat again after fall off) and did alot scandals too.. which only can preview in our aero group..

i guess pictures is better than words.. so i will upload some photos in Phuket..

1st day of work..

2day is my 1st day of my real life working..

but the feeling was like the time when i just entered uniten..

registration and orientation..

sitting at the same place for whole day..

listening to different speakers gave briefing on something that are common sense and something that we have no idea what it is about..

whole day i still no idea what my job scope or real working place will be..

the curiosity is still deep in my heart..

yesterday night although i slept early,

but i cannot slept well..

throughout the night,

i kept waking up..

my brain keep on flashing on what my working life will be..

honestly,

i nervous and worry..

cause i will be in a new environment..

last time during intern,

i still can countdown when these kind of life will end,

but now??

how should i countdown??

55 years old??

and now i just 23 years old..

32 years more??

years... is not days.. or months..

although it seems endless now,

but still i will try to enjoy my working life..

its not the way u look at it,

but is the way u go trough it..

I noticed a very big difference between my intern and real working life..

which is when im back home,

my mum home cook foods are already on the table waiting for me..

this kind of feeling is so sweet..

maybe im stupid enough to reject a 3.6k salary work in kl,

but i think im smart enough to choose to based in ipoh where my family is around me..

all my friends,

enjoy ur working life or your holiday life..

and to the crazy gang,

cant wait to see you all in phuket d...

take care ya.. hehe..

Coming up...

since i am going to settle my thesis soon and i will be back to ipoh this week..

so i guess i got time to update my long lost blog..

stay tune for my latest update..

蘿蔔、蛋和咖啡~

並不是樹木忍受、抵抗了四季的考驗；

而是四季經過了樹木，帶出了樹木的成熟。

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一個女兒對她的父親抱怨，說她的生命是如何如何痛苦、無助，她是多麼想要健康地走下去，但是她已失去方向，整個人惶惶然然，只想放棄。她已厭煩了抗拒、掙扎，但是問題似乎一個接著一個，讓她毫無招架之力。

當廚師的父親，二話不說，拉起心愛女兒的手，走向廚房。他燒了三鍋水，當水滾了之後，他在第一個鍋子裡放進蘿蔔，第二個鍋子裡放了一顆蛋，第三個鍋子中則放進了咖啡。

狐疑的女兒望著父親，不知所以然，而父親只是溫柔地握著她的手，示意她不要說話，靜靜地看著滾燙的水，以令人熾熱的溫度燒滾著鍋裡的蘿蔔、蛋和咖啡。

一段時間過後，父親把鍋裡的蘿蔔、蛋撈起來各放進碗中，把咖啡濾過倒進杯子，問：「寶貝，你看到了什麼？」女兒說：「蘿蔔、蛋和咖啡。」

父親把女兒拉近，要女兒摸摸經過沸水燒煮的蘿蔔，蘿蔔已被煮的軟爛；他要女兒拿蛋，敲碎薄硬的蛋殼，細心觀察著這顆水煮蛋；然後，他要女兒嚐嚐咖啡，女兒笑起來，喝著咖啡，聞到濃濃的香味。女兒謙虛恭敬地問：「爸，這是什麼意思？」

父親解釋，這三樣東西面對相同的逆境，也就是滾燙的水，反應卻各不相同，原本粗硬、堅實的蘿蔔，在滾水中卻變軟了，這個蛋原本非常脆弱，它那薄硬的外殼起初保護了它液體似的內容物，但是經過滾水的沸騰之後，蛋殼內卻變硬了；而粉末似的咖啡卻非常特別，在滾燙的熱水中，它竟然改變了水。

「妳呢？我的女兒，妳是什麼？」

父親慈愛地摸著雖已長大成人，卻一時失去勇氣女兒的頭說：


「當逆境來到妳的門前，妳作何反應呢？

妳是看似堅強的蘿蔔，但痛苦與逆境到來時卻變得軟弱，失去力量嗎？

或者妳原本是一顆蛋，有著柔順易變的心？

但是卻在經歷死亡、分離、困境之後，變得僵硬頑強？

或者，妳就像是咖啡？咖啡將那帶來痛苦的沸水改變了，

當它的溫度高升到一百多度時，水變成了美味的咖啡，


如果妳像咖啡，當逆境到來，一切不如意時，妳就會變得更好，而且將外在的一切轉變的更加令人歡喜，懂嗎？我的寶貝女兒？妳要讓逆境摧折妳，還是妳來轉變，讓身邊的一切人事物感覺更美好、更良善？」

CNY2010

although there are 15 days for CNY

but to me, CNY is already come to the end when i went back to UNITEN..

this year CNY is not the same as previous years..

no open house and yet angpau also lesser..

actually during CNY, i will be busy follow my parents go to his friends' open house..

almost every night at least 1 friend..

sometimes even need to rush for 3 houses in 1 night..

adult will gamble, drink alcohol (but not for my parents), chit chat there..

while the children will just sit aside or play with other children..

for my age,

no more playing around..

so i will only sit in front of the tv with my younger sis..

watch some show to pass our time..

when im getting older,

i dun feel like follow my parents go anymore..

i feel its kind of boring..

so i rather stay at home..

or i just go there for a while to show my face to them and drive back after that..
it makes me get less angpau too..

but the amount of angpau to me is no longer an important issue..

still rmb last time,

every year we will compare the angpau money that we get among siblings..

and now i quit from the 'competition' d..

this year angpau money is the least after so many years..

this year CNY,

my mum's side relative organized a steamboat party..

the organizer paid the expenses but me and my cousin need to go and get all the stuff..

i never been to PASAR for many many years d..

and this CNY i went there early in the morning..

not bad..

at least there was 1 day i woke up early.. haha..

the steamboat session started at 6pm and ended at 1am..

more than 40 ppl gathered at my uncle's house but still the food cannot finish..

in the meantime, there were few gamble activities going on..

sambil gamble, sambil makan..

it was fun.. haha..

preparing the stuff ald make us busy for half day,

and yet cleaning was the most headache part..

but luckily there were helpers standby.. thank god..

at 1st, my aunt wanna treat us a dinner in a restaurant..

but still i guess this kind of party gave us more fun..

other than family gathering,

CNY also a time for a bunch of friend to gather up..

and this year,

i went for a so called my form 3 class gathering..

but when i reached there..

there was only 1 my f3 classmate..

others was from other class..

feel like being tipu by my friend d..

but nvm,

i had fun with them too..

after left school,

i never got the chance to meet all of them..

annual netball gathering,

cant make it for the dinner

but went there for a short photo session..

keep in track with some of my seniors..

and yet im not surprise that netball players can be so noisy and crazy.. haha..

last but not least,

a friend's open house that i actually only know few people there..

but as usual crapping can just make the time passed faster..

manage to meet a few friends there..

and photo session is a MUST.. haha..

teenagers nowadays..

before CNY knock at my door,
AI test 1 will be knocking at my door tomorrow.
so today i went to KFC serdang to study while jason was waiting for his night classes..
when we were studying without any noise,
suddenly a bunch of teenagers came in..
half of them was wearing school uniform while the other half were not..

i guess the average age for them will be around 15 years old..

but some of them looks like form 1 or form 2 to me..

there was a guy among the gang had attracted my attention..
his hair is in purple color..

wonder how he can enter the school with this hair..

they first went in the mini playground at the corner..

everyone should know that,

the playground is for kids below 12 years old..

but they sat down and chit chat there..

(guess thats the reason the public playground can be spoil easily..)

a male kfc worker went in and asked them to come out..

he stared at the purple hair guy cause he moved 1 of the ceiling wood until out of position..

after the KFC worker went off,

the purple hair guy straight make a call..

'wei, free ah?? wanna beat people anot?? come KFC serdang..'

i heard this sentence and i was like..

what the.. just a stare and need to beat ppl..

i know he beh soong..

but how he react scared me..

a young teenager can give such a react when ppl just give a simple stare..

and yet they did wrong in the 1st place..

after that, the way they talk to each other was 'outstanding'..

the way they describe everything will add with some fault words..

even me cant come out all that but it seems this is their way to communicate..

even for girls that just look like 14 years old to me..

a bunch of teenagers is just like a gang of gangster to me..

the world is really changing..

you need to respect people that older than you,

but you also need to be very careful with the teenagers nowadays..

if not,

u might just beat by unknown ppl out of sudden..

but in the end,

i guess the 'brother' was not free..

so the KFC worker should be safe..